Hello Macbeth,
this Dr. Doctor, your doctor. After some tests it seems that you have severe case of Schizoid and Schizotypal. You pretty much cant socialize very well. You might just not like people. What i would assume is you may feel like people are after you in some way. the way i would go at these disorders is by just coming clean on any secrets you may have. the guilt might be trying to be expressed but you seem to be hiding it some how. You also seem to let people make you feel bad with their criticism. i think you need to do what your conscience feels is right and go with what you want not what others want. this disorder can be fixed if you do what i tell you but again its up to you if you want to socialize better.
Sincerely,
Dr. Doctor, your doctor.